VII + 

Since her reinstatement in Miss HatchardтАЩs favour Charity had not dared to curtail by a moment her hours of attendance at the library. She even made a point of arriving before the time, and showed a laudable indignation when the youngest Targatt girl, who had been engaged to help in the cleaning and rearranging of the books, came trailing in late and neglected her task to peer through the window at the Sollas boy. Nevertheless, тАЬlibrary daysтАЭ seemed more than ever irksome to Charity after her vivid hours of liberty; and she would have found it hard to set a good example to her subordinate if Lucius Harney had not been commissioned, before Miss HatchardтАЩs departure, to examine with the local carpenter the best means of ventilating the тАЬMemorial.тАЭ + 

He was careful to prosecute this inquiry on the days when the library was open to the public; and Charity was therefore sure of spending part of the afternoon in his company. The Targatt girlтАЩs presence, and the risk of being interrupted by some passerby suddenly smitten with a thirst for letters, restricted their intercourse to the exchange of commonplaces; but there was a fascination to Charity in the contrast between these public civilities and their secret intimacy. + 

The day after their drive to the brown house was тАЬlibrary day,тАЭ and she sat at her desk working at the revised catalogue, while the Targatt girl, one eye on the window, chanted out the titles of a pile of books. CharityтАЩs thoughts were far away, in the dismal house by the swamp, and under the twilight sky during the long drive home, when Lucius Harney had consoled her with endearing words. That day, for the first time since he had been boarding with them, he had failed to appear as usual at the midday meal. No message had come to explain his absence, and Mr.┬аRoyall, who was more than usually taciturn, had betrayed no surprise, and made no comment. In itself this indifference was not particularly significant, for Mr.┬аRoyall, in common with most of his fellow-citizens, had a way of accepting events passively, as if he had long since come to the conclusion that no one who lived in North Dormer could hope to modify them. But to Charity, in the reaction from her mood of passionate exaltation, there was something disquieting in his silence. It was almost as if Lucius Harney had never had a part in their lives: Mr.┬аRoyallтАЩs imperturbable indifference seemed to relegate him to the domain of unreality. + 

As she sat at work, she tried to shake off her disappointment at HarneyтАЩs non-appearing. Some trifling incident had probably kept him from joining them at midday; but she was sure he must be eager to see her again, and that he would not want to wait till they met at supper, between Mr.┬аRoyall and Verena. She was wondering what his first words would be, and trying to devise a way of getting rid of the Targatt girl before he came, when she heard steps outside, and he walked up the path with Mr.┬аMiles. + 

The clergyman from Hepburn seldom came to North Dormer except when he drove over to officiate at the old white church which, by an unusual chance, happened to belong to the Episcopal communion. He was a brisk affable man, eager to make the most of the fact that a little nucleus of тАЬchurch-peopleтАЭ had survived in the sectarian wilderness, and resolved to undermine the influence of the gingerbread-coloured Baptist chapel at the other end of the village; but he was kept busy by parochial work at Hepburn, where there were paper-mills and saloons, and it was not often that he could spare time for North Dormer. + 

Charity, who went to the white church (like all the best people in North Dormer), admired Mr.┬аMiles, and had even, during the memorable trip to Nettleton, imagined herself married to a man who had such a straight nose and such a beautiful way of speaking, and who lived in a brownstone rectory covered with Virginia creeper. It had been a shock to discover that the privilege was already enjoyed by a lady with crimped hair and a large baby; but the arrival of Lucius Harney had long since banished Mr.┬аMiles from CharityтАЩs dreams, and as he walked up the path at HarneyтАЩs side she saw him as he really was: a fat middle-aged man with a baldness showing under his clerical hat, and spectacles on his Grecian nose. She wondered what had called him to North Dormer on a weekday, and felt a little hurt that Harney should have brought him to the library. + 

It presently appeared that his presence there was due to Miss Hatchard. He had been spending a few days at Springfield, to fill a friendтАЩs pulpit, and had been consulted by Miss Hatchard as to young HarneyтАЩs plan for ventilating the тАЬMemorial.тАЭ To lay hands on the Hatchard ark was a grave matter, and Miss Hatchard, always full of scruples about her scruples (it was HarneyтАЩs phrase), wished to have Mr.┬аMilesтАЩs opinion before deciding. + 

тАЬI couldnтАЩt,тАЭ Mr.┬аMiles explained, тАЬquite make out from your cousin what changes you wanted to make, and as the other trustees did not understand either I thought I had better drive over and take a lookтБатАФthough IтАЩm sure,тАЭ he added, turning his friendly spectacles on the young man, тАЬthat no one could be more competentтБатАФbut of course this spot has its peculiar sanctity!тАЭ + 

тАЬI hope a little fresh air wonтАЩt desecrate it,тАЭ Harney laughingly rejoined; and they walked to the other end of the library while he set forth his idea to the Rector. + 

Mr.┬аMiles had greeted the two girls with his usual friendliness, but Charity saw that he was occupied with other things, and she presently became aware, by the scraps of conversation drifting over to her, that he was still under the charm of his visit to Springfield, which appeared to have been full of agreeable incidents. + 

тАЬAh, the CoopersonsтБатАКтБатАж yes, you know them, of course,тАЭ she heard. тАЬThatтАЩs a fine old house! And Ned Cooperson has collected some really remarkable impressionist pictures.тБатАКтБатАжтАЭ The names he cited were unknown to Charity. тАЬYes; yes; the Schaefer quartette played at Lyric Hall on Saturday evening; and on Monday I had the privilege of hearing them again at the Towers. Beautifully doneтБатАКтБатАж Bach and BeethovenтБатАКтБатАж a lawn-party firstтБатАКтБатАж I saw Miss Balch several times, by the wayтБатАКтБатАж looking extremely handsome.тБатАКтБатАжтАЭ + 

Charity dropped her pencil and forgot to listen to the Targatt girlтАЩs singsong. Why had Mr.┬аMiles suddenly brought up Annabel BalchтАЩs name? + 

тАЬOh, really?тАЭ she heard Harney rejoin; and, raising his stick, he pursued: тАЬYou see, my plan is to move these shelves away, and open a round window in this wall, on the axis of the one under the pediment.тАЭ + 

тАЬI suppose sheтАЩll be coming up here later to stay with Miss Hatchard?тАЭ Mr.┬аMiles went on, following on his train of thought; then, spinning about and tilting his head back: тАЬYes, yes, I seeтБатАФI understand: that will give a draught without materially altering the look of things. I can see no objection.тАЭ + 

The discussion went on for some minutes, and gradually the two men moved back toward the desk. Mr.┬аMiles stopped again and looked thoughtfully at Charity. тАЬArenтАЩt you a little pale, my dear? Not overworking? Mr.┬аHarney tells me you and Mamie are giving the library a thorough overhauling.тАЭ He was always careful to remember his parishionersтАЩ Christian names, and at the right moment he bent his benignant spectacles on the Targatt girl. + 

Then he turned to Charity. тАЬDonтАЩt take things hard, my dear; donтАЩt take things hard. Come down and see Mrs.┬аMiles and me some day at Hepburn,тАЭ he said, pressing her hand and waving a farewell to Mamie Targatt. He went out of the library, and Harney followed him. + 

Charity thought she detected a look of constraint in HarneyтАЩs eyes. She fancied he did not want to be alone with her; and with a sudden pang she wondered if he repented the tender things he had said to her the night before. His words had been more fraternal than lover-like; but she had lost their exact sense in the caressing warmth of his voice. He had made her feel that the fact of her being a waif from the Mountain was only another reason for holding her close and soothing her with consolatory murmurs; and when the drive was over, and she got out of the buggy, tired, cold, and aching with emotion, she stepped as if the ground were a sunlit wave and she the spray on its crest. + 

Why, then, had his manner suddenly changed, and why did he leave the library with Mr.┬аMiles? Her restless imagination fastened on the name of Annabel Balch: from the moment it had been mentioned she fancied that HarneyтАЩs expression had altered. Annabel Balch at a garden-party at Springfield, looking тАЬextremely handsomeтАЭтБатАКтБатАж perhaps Mr.┬аMiles had seen her there at the very moment when Charity and Harney were sitting in the HyattsтАЩ hovel, between a drunkard and a half-witted old woman! Charity did not know exactly what a garden-party was, but her glimpse of the flower-edged lawns of Nettleton helped her to visualize the scene, and envious recollections of the тАЬold thingsтАЭ which Miss Balch avowedly тАЬwore outтАЭ when she came to North Dormer made it only too easy to picture her in her splendour. Charity understood what associations the name must have called up, and felt the uselessness of struggling against the unseen influences in HarneyтАЩs life. + 

When she came down from her room for supper he was not there; and while she waited in the porch she recalled the tone in which Mr.┬аRoyall had commented the day before on their early start. Mr.┬аRoyall sat at her side, his chair tilted back, his broad black boots with side-elastics resting against the lower bar of the railings. His rumpled grey hair stood up above his forehead like the crest of an angry bird, and the leather-brown of his veined cheeks was blotched with red. Charity knew that those red spots were the signs of a coming explosion. + 

Suddenly he said: тАЬWhereтАЩs supper? Has Verena Marsh slipped up again on her soda-biscuits?тАЭ + 

Charity threw a startled glance at him. тАЬI presume sheтАЩs waiting for Mr.┬аHarney.тАЭ + 

тАЬMr.┬аHarney, is she? SheтАЩd better dish up, then. He ainтАЩt coming.тАЭ He stood up, walked to the door, and called out, in the pitch necessary to penetrate the old womanтАЩs tympanum: тАЬGet along with the supper, Verena.тАЭ + 

Charity was trembling with apprehension. Something had happenedтБатАФshe was sure of it nowтБатАФand Mr.┬аRoyall knew what it was. But not for the world would she have gratified him by showing her anxiety. She took her usual place, and he seated himself opposite, and poured out a strong cup of tea before passing her the teapot. Verena brought some scrambled eggs, and he piled his plate with them. тАЬAinтАЩt you going to take any?тАЭ he asked. Charity roused herself and began to eat. + 

The tone with which Mr.┬аRoyall had said тАЬHeтАЩs not comingтАЭ seemed to her full of an ominous satisfaction. She saw that he had suddenly begun to hate Lucius Harney, and guessed herself to be the cause of this change of feeling. But she had no means of finding out whether some act of hostility on his part had made the young man stay away, or whether he simply wished to avoid seeing her again after their drive back from the brown house. She ate her supper with a studied show of indifference, but she knew that Mr.┬аRoyall was watching her and that her agitation did not escape him. + 

After supper she went up to her room. She heard Mr.┬аRoyall cross the passage, and presently the sounds below her window showed that he had returned to the porch. She seated herself on her bed and began to struggle against the desire to go down and ask him what had happened. тАЬIтАЩd rather die than do it,тАЭ she muttered to herself. With a word he could have relieved her uncertainty: but never would she gratify him by saying it. + 

She rose and leaned out of the window. The twilight had deepened into night, and she watched the frail curve of the young moon dropping to the edge of the hills. Through the darkness she saw one or two figures moving down the road; but the evening was too cold for loitering, and presently the strollers disappeared. Lamps were beginning to show here and there in the windows. A bar of light brought out the whiteness of a clump of lilies in the HawesтАЩs yard: and farther down the street Carrick FryтАЩs Rochester lamp cast its bold illumination on the rustic flower-tub in the middle of his grass-plot. + 

For a long time she continued to lean in the window. But a fever of unrest consumed her, and finally she went downstairs, took her hat from its hook, and swung out of the house. Mr.┬аRoyall sat in the porch, Verena beside him, her old hands crossed on her patched skirt. As Charity went down the steps Mr.┬аRoyall called after her: тАЬWhere you going?тАЭ She could easily have answered: тАЬTo OrmaтАЩs,тАЭ or тАЬDown to the TargattsтАЩтАКтАЭ; and either answer might have been true, for she had no purpose. But she swept on in silence, determined not to recognize his right to question her. + 

At the gate she paused and looked up and down the road. The darkness drew her, and she thought of climbing the hill and plunging into the depths of the larch-wood above the pasture. Then she glanced irresolutely along the street, and as she did so a gleam appeared through the spruces at Miss HatchardтАЩs gate. Lucius Harney was there, thenтБатАФhe had not gone down to Hepburn with Mr.┬аMiles, as she had at first imagined. But where had he taken his evening meal, and what had caused him to stay away from Mr.┬аRoyallтАЩs? The light was positive proof of his presence, for Miss HatchardтАЩs servants were away on a holiday, and her farmerтАЩs wife came only in the mornings, to make the young manтАЩs bed and prepare his coffee. Beside that lamp he was doubtless sitting at this moment. To know the truth Charity had only to walk half the length of the village, and knock at the lighted window. She hesitated a minute or two longer, and then turned toward Miss HatchardтАЩs. + 

She walked quickly, straining her eyes to detect anyone who might be coming along the street; and before reaching the FrysтАЩ she crossed over to avoid the light from their window. Whenever she was unhappy she felt herself at bay against a pitiless world, and a kind of animal secretiveness possessed her. But the street was empty, and she passed unnoticed through the gate and up the path to the house. Its white front glimmered indistinctly through the trees, showing only one oblong of light on the lower floor. She had supposed that the lamp was in Miss HatchardтАЩs sitting-room; but she now saw that it shone through a window at the farther corner of the house. She did not know the room to which this window belonged, and she paused under the trees, checked by a sense of strangeness. Then she moved on, treading softly on the short grass, and keeping so close to the house that whoever was in the room, even if roused by her approach, would not be able to see her. + 

The window opened on a narrow verandah with a trellised arch. She leaned close to the trellis, and parting the sprays of clematis that covered it looked into a corner of the room. She saw the foot of a mahogany bed, an engraving on the wall, a washstand on which a towel had been tossed, and one end of the green-covered table which held the lamp. Half of the lampshade projected into her field of vision, and just under it two smooth sunburnt hands, one holding a pencil and the other a ruler, were moving to and fro over a drawing-board. + 

Her heart jumped and then stood still. He was there, a few feet away; and while her soul was tossing on seas of woe he had been quietly sitting at his drawing-board. The sight of those two hands, moving with their usual skill and precision, woke her out of her dream. Her eyes were opened to the disproportion between what she had felt and the cause of her agitation; and she was turning away from the window when one hand abruptly pushed aside the drawing-board and the other flung down the pencil. + 

Charity had often noticed HarneyтАЩs loving care of his drawings, and the neatness and method with which he carried on and concluded each task. The impatient sweeping aside of the drawing-board seemed to reveal a new mood. The gesture suggested sudden discouragement, or distaste for his work and she wondered if he too were agitated by secret perplexities. Her impulse of flight was checked; she stepped up on the verandah and looked into the room. + 

Harney had put his elbows on the table and was resting his chin on his locked hands. He had taken off his coat and waistcoat, and unbuttoned the low collar of his flannel shirt; she saw the vigorous lines of his young throat, and the root of the muscles where they joined the chest. He sat staring straight ahead of him, a look of weariness and self-disgust on his face: it was almost as if he had been gazing at a distorted reflection of his own features. For a moment Charity looked at him with a kind of terror, as if he had been a stranger under familiar lineaments; then she glanced past him and saw on the floor an open portmanteau half full of clothes. She understood that he was preparing to leave, and that he had probably decided to go without seeing her. She saw that the decision, from whatever cause it was taken, had disturbed him deeply; and she immediately concluded that his change of plan was due to some surreptitious interference of Mr.┬аRoyallтАЩs. All her old resentments and rebellions flamed up, confusedly mingled with the yearning roused by HarneyтАЩs nearness. Only a few hours earlier she had felt secure in his comprehending pity; now she was flung back on herself, doubly alone after that moment of communion. + 

Harney was still unaware of her presence. He sat without moving, moodily staring before him at the same spot in the wallpaper. He had not even had the energy to finish his packing, and his clothes and papers lay on the floor about the portmanteau. Presently he unlocked his clasped hands and stood up; and Charity, drawing back hastily, sank down on the step of the verandah. The night was so dark that there was not much chance of his seeing her unless he opened the window and before that she would have time to slip away and be lost in the shadow of the trees. He stood for a minute or two looking around the room with the same expression of self-disgust, as if he hated himself and everything about him; then he sat down again at the table, drew a few more strokes, and threw his pencil aside. Finally he walked across the floor, kicking the portmanteau out of his way, and lay down on the bed, folding his arms under his head, and staring up morosely at the ceiling. Just so, Charity had seen him at her side on the grass or the pine-needles, his eyes fixed on the sky, and pleasure flashing over his face like the flickers of sun the branches shed on it. But now the face was so changed that she hardly knew it; and grief at his grief gathered in her throat, rose to her eyes and ran over. + 

She continued to crouch on the steps, holding her breath and stiffening herself into complete immobility. One motion of her hand, one tap on the pane, and she could picture the sudden change in his face. In every pulse of her rigid body she was aware of the welcome his eyes and lips would give her; but something kept her from moving. It was not the fear of any sanction, human or heavenly; she had never in her life been afraid. It was simply that she had suddenly understood what would happen if she went in. It was the thing that did happen between young men and girls, and that North Dormer ignored in public and snickered over on the sly. It was what Miss Hatchard was still ignorant of, but every girl of CharityтАЩs class knew about before she left school. It was what had happened to Ally HawesтАЩs sister Julia, and had ended in her going to Nettleton, and in peopleтАЩs never mentioning her name. + 

It did not, of course, always end so sensationally; nor, perhaps, on the whole, so untragically. Charity had always suspected that the shunned JuliaтАЩs fate might have its compensations. There were others, worse endings that the village knew of, mean, miserable, unconfessed; other lives that went on drearily, without visible change, in the same cramped setting of hypocrisy. But these were not the reasons that held her back. Since the day before, she had known exactly what she would feel if Harney should take her in his arms: the melting of palm into palm and mouth on mouth, and the long flame burning her from head to foot. But mixed with this feeling was another: the wondering pride in his liking for her, the startled softness that his sympathy had put into her heart. Sometimes, when her youth flushed up in her, she had imagined yielding like other girls to furtive caresses in the twilight; but she could not so cheapen herself to Harney. She did not know why he was going; but since he was going she felt she must do nothing to deface the image of her that he carried away. If he wanted her he must seek her: he must not be surprised into taking her as girls like Julia Hawes were taken.тБатАКтБатАж + 

No sound came from the sleeping village, and in the deep darkness of the garden she heard now and then a secret rustle of branches, as though some night-bird brushed them. Once a footfall passed the gate, and she shrank back into her corner; but the steps died away and left a profounder quiet. Her eyes were still on HarneyтАЩs tormented face: she felt she could not move till he moved. But she was beginning to grow numb from her constrained position, and at times her thoughts were so indistinct that she seemed to be held there only by a vague weight of weariness. + 

A long time passed in this strange vigil. Harney still lay on the bed, motionless and with fixed eyes, as though following his vision to its bitter end. At last he stirred and changed his attitude slightly, and CharityтАЩs heart began to tremble. But he only flung out his arms and sank back into his former position. With a deep sigh he tossed the hair from his forehead; then his whole body relaxed, his head turned sideways on the pillow, and she saw that he had fallen asleep. The sweet expression came back to his lips, and the haggardness faded from his face, leaving it as fresh as a boyтАЩs. + 

She rose and crept away. + 