III
I
When Olivia first came to the old house as the wife of Anson Pentland, the village of Durham, which lay inland from Pentlands and the sea, had been invisible, lying concealed in a fold of the land which marked the faint beginnings of the New Hampshire mountains. There had been in the view a certain sleepy peacefulness: one knew that in the distant fold of land surmounted by a single white spire there lay a quiet village of white wooden houses built along a single street called High Street that was dappled in summer with the shadows of old elm-trees. In those days it had been a country village, half asleep, with empty shuttered houses here and there falling into slow decayвБ†вАФa village with fewer people in it than there had been a hundred years before. It had stayed thus sleeping for nearly seventy-five years, since the day when a great migration of citizens had robbed it of its sturdiest young people. In the thick grass that surrounded the old meetinghouse there lay a marble slab recording the event with an inscription which read:
From this spot on the fourteenth day of August, eighteen hundred and eighteen, the Reverend Josiah Milford, Pastor of this Church, with one hundred and ninety members of his congregationвБ†вАФmen, women and childrenвБ†вАФset out, secure in their faith in Almighty God, to establish His Will and Power in the Wilderness of the Western Reserve.
Beneath the inscription were cut the names of those families who had made the journey to found a new town which had since surpassed sleepy Durham a hundred times in wealth and prosperity. There was no Pentland name among them, for the Pentlands had been rich even in the year eighteen hundred and eighteen, and lived in winter in Boston and in summer at Durham, on the land claimed from the wilderness by the first of the family.
From that day until the mills came to Durham the village sank slowly into a kind of lethargy, and the church itself, robbed of its strength, died presently and was changed into a dusty museum filled with homely early American furniture and spinning-wheelsвБ†вАФa place seldom visited by anyone and painted grudgingly every five years by the town council because it was popularly considered an historical monument. The Pentland family long ago had filtered away into the cold faith of the Unitarians or the more compromising and easy creeds of the Episcopal church.
But now, nearly twenty years after Olivia had come to Pentlands, the village was alive again, so alive that it had overflowed its little fold in the land and was streaming down the hill on the side next to the sea in straight, plain columns of ugly stucco bungalows, each filled with its little family of Polish mill-workers. And in the town, across High Street from the white-spired old meetinghouse, there stood a new church, built of stucco and green-painted wood and dedicated to the great Church of Rome. In the old wooden houses along High Street there still lingered remnants of the old familiesвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ old Mrs.¬†Featherstone, who did washing to support four sickly grandchildren who ought never to have been born; Miss Haddon, a queer old woman who wore a black cape and lived on a dole from old John Pentland as a remote cousin of the family; Harry Peckhan, the village carpenter; old Mrs.¬†Malson, living alone in a damp, gaunt and beautiful old house filled with bits of jade and ivory brought back from China by her grandfatherвАЩs clippers; Miss Murgatroyd, who had long since turned her bullfinch house into a shabby tearoom. They remained here and there, a few worn and shabby-genteel descendants of those first settlers who had come into the country with the Pentlands.
But the mills had changed everything, the mills which poured wealth into the pockets of a dozen rich families who lived in summer within a few miles of Durham.
Even the countryside itself had changed. There were no longer any of the old New Englanders in possession of the land. Sometimes in riding along the lanes one encountered a thin, silly-faced remnant of the race sitting on a stone wall chewing a bit of grass; but that was all: the others had been swallowed up long ago in the mills of Salem and Lynn or died away, from too much inbreeding and too little nourishment. The few farms that remained fell into the hands of Poles and Czechs, solid, square people who were a little pagan in their closeness to the earth and the animals which surrounded them, sturdy people, not too moral, who wrought wonders with the barren, stony earth of New England and stood behind their walls staring wide-eyed while the grand people like the Pentlands rode by in pink coats surrounded by the waving nervous tails of foxhounds. And, one by one, other old farms were being turned back into a wilderness once more so that there would be plenty of room for the horses and hounds to run after foxes and bags of aniseed.
It had all changed enormously. From the upper windows of the big Georgian brick house where the Pentlands lived, one could see the record of all the changes. The windows commanded a wide view of a landscape composed of grubby meadows and stone walls, thickets of pine and white birches, marshes, and a winding sluggish brown river. Sometimes in the late autumn the deer wandered down from the mountains of New Hampshire to spoil the foxhunting by leading the hounds astray after game that was far too fleet for them.
And nearer at hand, nestled within a turn of the river, lay the land where Sabine Callender had been born and had lived until she was a grown womanвБ†вАФthe land which she had sold carelessly to OвАЩHara, an Irish politician and a Roman Catholic, come up from nowhere to take possession of it, to clip its hedges, repair its sagging walls, paint its old buildings and put up gates and fences that were too shiny and new. Indeed, he had done it so thoroughly and so well that the whole place had a little the air of a suburban real estate development. And now Sabine had returned to spend the summer in one of his houses and to be very friendly with him in the face of Aunt Cassie and Anson Pentland, and a score of others like them.
Olivia knew this wide and somberly beautiful landscape, every stick and stone of it, from the perilous gravel-pit, half-hidden by its fringe of elder-bushes, to the black pine copse where Higgins had discovered only a day or two before a new litter of foxes. She knew it on gray days when it was cold and depressing, on those bright, terribly clear New England days when every twig and leaf seemed outlined by light, and on those damp, cold days when a gray fog swept in across the marshes from the sea to envelop all the countryside in gray darkness. It was a hard, uncompromising, stony country that was never too cheerful.
It was a country, too, which gave her an old feeling of lonelinessвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ a feeling which, strangely enough, seemed to increase rather than diminish as the years passed. She had never accustomed herself to its occasional dreariness. In the beginning, a long while ago, it had seemed to her green and peaceful and full of quiet, a place where she might find rest and peaceвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ but she had come long since to see it as it was, as Sabine had seen it while she stood in the window of the writing-room, frightened by the sudden queer apparition of the little groomвБ†вАФa country beautiful, hard and cold, and a little barren.
II
There were times when the memories of OliviaвАЩs youth seemed to sharpen suddenly and sweep in upon her, overwhelming all sense of the present, times when she wanted suddenly and fiercely to step back into that far-off past which had seemed then an unhappy thing; and these were the times when she felt most lonely, the times when she knew how completely, with the passing of years, she had drawn into herself; it was a process of protection like a tortoise drawing in its head. And all the while, in spite of the smiles and the politeness and the too facile amiability, she felt that she was really a stranger at Pentlands, that there were certain walls and barriers which she could never break down, past which she could never penetrate, certain faiths in which it was impossible for her to believe.
It was difficult now for her to remember very clearly what had happened before she came to Durham; it all seemed lost, confused, buried beneath the weight of her devotion to the vast family monument of the Pentlands. She had forgotten the names of people and places and confused the days and the years. At times it was difficult for her to remember the endless confusing voyages back and forth across the Atlantic and the vast, impersonal, vacuous hotels which had followed each other in the bleak and unreal procession of her childhood.
She could remember with a certain pitiful clarity two happy years spent at the school in Saint-Cloud, where for months at a time she had lived in a single room which she might call her own, where she had rested, free from the terror of hearing her mother say, вАЬWe must pack today. We are leaving tomorrow for St.¬†Petersburg or London or San Remo or Cairo.вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶вАЭ
She could scarcely remember at all the immense house of chocolate-colored stone fitted with fantastic turrets and balconies that overlooked Lake Michigan. It had been sold and torn down long ago, destroyed like all else that belonged to the far-off past. She could not remember the father who had died when she was three; but of him there remained at least a yellowing photograph of a great, handsome, brawny man with a humorous Scotch-Irish face, who had died at the moment when his name was coming to be known everywhere as a power in Washington. No, nothing remained of him save the old photograph, and the tenuous, mocking little smile which had come down to her, the way she had of saying, вАЬYes! Yes!вАЭ pleasantly when she meant to act in quite the contrary fashion.
There were times when the memory of her own mother became vague and fantastic, as if she had been no more than a figure out of some absurd photograph of the early nineteen hundredsвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ the figure of a pretty woman, dressed fashionably in clothes that flowed away in both directions, from a wasp waist. It was like a figure out of one of those old photographs which one views with a kind of melancholy amusement. She remembered a vain, rather selfish and pretty woman, fond of flattery, who had been shrewd enough never to marry any one of those gallant dark gentlemen with high-sounding titles who came to call at the eternal changeless hotel sitting-room, to take her out to garden parties and f√™tes and races. And always in the background of the memory there was the figure of a dark little girl, overflowing with spirits and a hunger for friends, who was left behind to amuse herself by walking out with the Swiss governess, to make friends among the children she encountered in the parks or on the beaches and the boulevards of whatever European city her mother was visiting at the momentвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ friends whom she saw today and who were vanished tomorrow never to be seen again. Her mother, she saw now, belonged to the America of the nineties. She saw her now less as a real person than a character out of a novel by Mrs.¬†Wharton.
But she had never remarried; she had remained the rich, pretty Mrs.¬†McConnel of Chicago until that tragic day (the clearest of all OliviaвАЩs memories and the most terrible) when she had died of fever abruptly in a remote and squalid Italian village, with only her daughter (a girl of seventeen), a quack doctor and the Russian driver of her motor to care for her.
The procession of confused and not-too-cheerful memories came to a climax in a gloomy, red brick house off Washington Square, where she had gone as an orphan to live with a rigid, bejetted, maternal aunt who had believed that the whole world revolved about Lenox, the Hudson River Valley and Washington SquareвБ†вАФan aunt who had never spoken to OliviaвАЩs father because she, like Anson and Aunt Cassie, had a prejudice against Irishmen who appeared out of nowhere, engaging, full of life and high spirits.
So at eighteen she had found herself alone in the world save for one bejetted aunt, with no friends save those she had picked up as a child on beaches and promenades, whose names she could no longer even remember. And the only fixed world she knew was the world of the aunt who talked incessantly of the plush, camphor-smelling splendor of a New York which no longer existed.
Olivia saw it all clearly now. She saw why it was that when Anson Pentland came one night to call upon her aunt she had thought him an elegant and fascinating man whose presence at dinner had the power of transforming the solid walnut and mahogany dining-room into a brilliant place. He was what girls called вАЬan older man,вАЭ and he had flattered her by his politeness and attentions. He had even taken her chaperoned by the aunt, to see a performance of The City, little knowing that the indecorousness to be unfolded there would force them to leave before the play was over. They had gone on a Thursday evening (she could even remember the very day) and she still smiled at the memory of their belief that a girl who had spent all her life in the corridors of European hotels should not know what the play was about.
And then it had all ended by her being asked to Pentlands for a visitвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ to Pentlands, where she had come upon a world such as she had never known before, a world green and peaceful and secure, where everyone was elaborately kind to her for reasons that she never learned until long afterward. They never even told her the truth about AnsonвАЩs mother, the old woman who lived in solitude in the north wing. She was, they said, too ill at the moment to see anyone. Pentlands, in that far-off day, had seemed to the tired, friendless girl like some vast, soft green bed where she could fling herself down and rest forever, a world where she could make friends and send down roots that would hold her secure for all time. To a hotel child Pentlands was a paradise; so when Anson Pentland asked her to marry him, she accepted him because she did not find him actually repulsive.
And now, after all those years, it was spring againвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ spring as when she had come to Pentlands for the first time, and she was thirty-nine years old and still young; only everything had changed.
Bit by bit, in the years that followed the birth of Sybil and then of Jack, the whole picture of the life at Pentlands and in the brownstone house on Beacon Street had come to assume a pattern, to take form out of the first confused and misty impressions, so that, looking back upon it, she was beginning to understand it all with the chill clarity of disillusion.
She saw herself as a shy young girl to whom they had all been elaborately kind because it was so necessary for Anson to have a wife and produce an heir.вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ Anson, the last male descendant of such a glorious family. (The Pentland Family and the Massachusetts Bay Colony.) She saw herself as they must have seen herвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ a pretty young girl, disarmed by their kindness, who was not known in their world but was at least charming and a lady and quite rich. (She knew now how much the money must have counted with Aunt Cassie.) And she saw Anson now, across all the expanse of years, not as a Prince Charming come to rescue her from an ogre aunt, but as he had really beenвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ a rather anemic man, past thirty, of an appalling propriety. (There was a bitter humor in the memories of his timid advances toward her, of all the distaste with which he approached the details of marriageвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ a humor which she had come to understand fully only as she grew older and wiser in the ways of the world.) Looking back, she saw him as a man who had tried again and again to marry young women he had known all his life and who had failed because somehow he had gained a mysterious reputation for being a boreвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ a young man who, left to himself, would never have approached any woman, and gone to the grave as virginal as he had been born.
She saw now that he had never been even in the slightest in love with her. He had married her only because he got no peace from all the others, both the living and the dead, who in such a strange fashion seemed also to live at Pentlands. It was Aunt Cassie and even poor silly Miss Peavey and powerful old John Pentland and the cousins and all those dead hanging in neat rows in the hall who had married her. Anson had only been an instrument; and even in the most bitter moments she felt strangely sorry for him, because he, too, had had all his life ruined.
And so, slowly during all those long years, the pretty, shy, unknown Olivia McConnel, whose father was a Democratic politician out of Chicago, had turned into this puzzled, sometimes unhappy woman, the outsider, who had come in some mysterious fashion to be the one upon whom all of them leaned for strength.
She was glad now that she had stood forth boldly at last and faced Anson and all those who stood behind him there in the drawing-room, both the living and the dead, peering over his shoulder, urging him on. The unpleasant argument, though it had wounded her, had cleared the air a little. It had laid bare for a second the reality which she had been seeking for so long a time. Anson had been right about Sabine: in the clear bright air of the New England morning she knew that it was the sense of SabineвАЩs nearness which had given her the strength to be unpleasant. Sabine, like herself, had known the great world, and so she was able to see their world here in Durham with a clarity that the others never approached. She was strong, too, in her knowledge that whatever happened she (Olivia) was the one person whom they could not afford to lose, because they had depended on her for too long.
But she was hurt. She kept thinking again and again of what Anson had said.вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ вАЬIn any case, I will not have my daughter marry a shanty Irishman. There is enough of that in the family.вАЭ
She knew that Anson would suffer from shame for what he had said, but she knew, too, that he would pretend nothing had happened, that he had never made such a speech, because it was unworthy of a gentleman and a Pentland. He would pretend, as he always did, that the scene had never occurred.
When he had made the speech he had meant that she ought to have been thankful that they allowed her to marry into the Pentland family. There was a buried something in them all, a conviction that was a part of their very flesh, which made them believe in such a privilege. And for her who knew so much more than the world knew, who saw so much more than any of them of the truth, there was only one answer, to be wrung from her with a tragic intensityвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ вАЬOh, my God!вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶вАЭ
III
The dining-room was large and square, and having been redecorated in a period later than the rest of the house, was done in heavy mahogany, with a vast shiny table in the center which when reduced to its smallest possible circumference still left those who seated themselves about it formally remote from one another.
It was a well-used table, for since circumstance had kept John Pentland from going into the world, he had brought a part of it into his own home with a hospitality and a warmth that rather upset his sister Cassie. She, herself, like most of the family, had never cared very profoundly for food, looking upon it almost as a necessity. A prune to her palate shared importance as a delicacy with a truffle. In the secrecy of her own house, moved by her passion for economy, she more often than not assuaged her own birdlike appetite with scraps from the cupboard, though at such times the simple but full-blooded Miss Peavey suffered keenly. вАЬA pickup mealвАЭ was a byword with Aunt Cassie, and so she frowned upon the rich food furnished by old John Pentland and his daughter-in-law, Olivia.
Nevertheless, she took a great many meals at the mahogany table and even managed to insinuate within its circle the plump figure of Miss Peavey, whose silly laugh and servile echoes of his sisterвАЩs opinions the old man detested.
Anson never lunched at home, for he went up to Boston each morning at nine oвАЩclock, like a man of affairs, with much business to care for. He kept an office in Water Street and went to it with a passionate regularity, to spend the day in the petty affairs of club committees and societies for the improvement of this or that; for he was a man who fortified his own soul by arranging the lives of others. He was chairman of a committee which вАЬairedвАЭ young girls who had fallen into trouble, and contributed as much as he was able out of his own rather slender income to the activities of the Watch and Ward Society. And a large part of the day was spent in correspondence with genealogists on the subject of The Pentland Family and the Massachusetts Bay Colony. He did not in a whole year earn enough money to pay the office rent for one month, but he had no patience with the many cases of poverty and destitution which came to his notice. The stocks and bonds of the Pentland estate had been kept carefully out of his reach, by a father who distrusted activities such as AnsonвАЩs, and even now, when he was nearly fifty. Anson had only a small income left by his grandfather and an allowance, paid him each month by his father, as if he were still a boy in college.
So when Olivia came down to lunch on the day after the ball she was not forced to face Anson and his shame over the scene of the night before. There were only the grandfather and Sybil and JackвБ†вАФwho was well enough to come down.
The old man sat at the head, in the place which he had never relinquished as the dictator, the ruler of all the family. Tall and muscular, he had grown leathery from exposure during the years he had lived in the country, riding day after day in rains and blizzards, in sunlight and in storms, as if there were in him some atavistic hunger for the hardy life led by the first Pentlands to come to Durham. He always rode the vicious and unruly beautiful red mareвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ a grim old man who was a match for her famous bad temper. He was rather like his sister Cassie in appearanceвБ†вАФone of the black Pentlands who had appeared mysteriously in the line nearly a hundred years earlier, and he had burning black eyes that looked out from shaggy browsвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ a man as different in appearance and vigor from his son as it was possible to imagine. (For Anson was a typical PentlandвБ†вАФblond, with round blue eyes and an inclination when in health toward ruddiness.) One stood in awe of the old man: there was a grimness about the strong, rough-cut face and contracted lips, and a curious, indefinable air of disapproval which one was never able to pin down or analyze.
He was silent today, in one of the black moods which Olivia knew well meant that he was troubled. She knew that this time it had nothing to do with JackвАЩs illness, for the boy sat there opposite them, looking stronger than he had looked in monthsвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ blond and pale and thin, with the blue veins showing at his pathetic wrists and on his thin, handsome temples.
Olivia had lived through bad times over Jack and she had lived through them always together with John Pentland, so there had grown up between themвБ†вАФthe mother and the grandfatherвБ†вАФa sense of understanding which was quite beyond speech. Together they had spent so many nights by the side of the boy, keeping him alive almost by the strength of their united wills, forcing him to live when, gasping for life, he would have slipped away easily into death. Together they had kept him in life, because they both loved him and because he was the last son of the family.
Olivia felt sometimes that Sybil, too, played a part in the never-ending struggle against death. The girl, like her grandfather, never spoke of such things, but one could read them in the troubled depths of her violet eyes. That long, weary struggle was one of the tragedies they never spoke of at Pentlands, leaving it buried in silence. One said, вАЬJack looks well today,вАЭ smiling, and, вАЬPerhaps the doctors are wrong.вАЭ Sybil was watching her brother now, in that quiet, mysterious way she had, watching him cautiously lest he discover that she was watching; for he discovered troubles easily, with the kind of clairvoyance which comes to people who have always been ill.
They barely talked at all during the lunch. Sybil planned to take her brother in the trap to ride over the farm and down to the white dunes.
вАЬHiggins is going with us,вАЭ she said. вАЬHeвАЩs going to show us the new litter of foxes in the black thicket.вАЭ
And Jack said, вАЬItвАЩs a funny thing about Higgins. He always discovers such things before anyone else. He knows when it will be a good day for fishing and just when it is going to rain. HeвАЩs never wrong.вАЭ
вАЬNoвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶вАЭ said the grandfather suddenly. вАЬItвАЩs a funny thing. HeвАЩs never wrongвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ not in all the years IвАЩve known him.вАЭ
It was the only time he said anything during the meal, and Olivia, trying to fill in the gaps in the conversation, found it difficult, with the boy sitting opposite her looking so pale and ill. It seemed to her sometimes that he had never really been born, that he had always remained in some way a part of herself. When he was out of her sight, she had no peace because there was always a gnawing terror that she might never see him again. And she knew that deep inside the frail body there was a spirit, a flame, descended from the old man and from herself, which burned passionately with a desire for life, for riding, for swimming, for running across the open meadowsвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ a flame that must always be smothered. If only he had been like Anson, his father, who never knew that hunger for life.вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶
вАЬOlivia, my dearвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶вАЭ The old man was speaking. вАЬWill you have your coffee with me in the library? There is something I want to discuss with you.вАЭ
She knew it then. She had been right. There was something which troubled him. He always said the same thing when he was faced by some problem too heavy for his old shoulders. He always said, вАЬOlivia, my dear.вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ Will you come into the library?вАЭ He never summoned his own son, or his sister CassieвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ no one but Olivia. Between them they shared secrets which the others never dreamed of; and when he died, all the troubles would be hersвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ they would be passed on for her to deal withвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ those troubles which existed in a family which the world would have said was rich and respected and quite without troubles.
IV
As she left the room to follow him she stopped for a moment to say to Sybil, вАЬAre you happy, my dear? YouвАЩre not sorry that you arenвАЩt going back to school in Saint-Cloud?вАЭ
вАЬNo, Mama; why shouldnвАЩt I be happy here? I love it, more than anything in the world.вАЭ
The girl thrust her hands into the pockets of her riding-coat.
вАЬYou donвАЩt think I was wrong to send you to France to schoolвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ away from everyone here?вАЭ
Sybil laughed and looked at her mother in the frank, half-mocking way she had when she fancied she had uncovered a plot.
вАЬAre you worrying about marrying me off? IвАЩm only eighteen. IвАЩve lots of time.вАЭ
вАЬIвАЩm worrying because I think youвАЩll be so hard to please.вАЭ
Again she laughed. вАЬThatвАЩs true. ThatвАЩs why IвАЩm going to take my time.вАЭ
вАЬAnd youвАЩre glad to have Th√©r√®se here?вАЭ
вАЬOf course. You know I like Th√©r√®se awfully, Mama.вАЭ
вАЬVery wellвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ run along now. I must speak to your grandfather.вАЭ
And the girl went out onto the terrace where Jack stood waiting in the sun for the trap. He always followed the sun, choosing to sit in it even in midsummer, as if he were never quite warm enough.
She was worried over Sybil. She had begun to think that perhaps Aunt Cassie was right when she said that Sybil ought to go to a boarding-school with the girls she had always known, to grow loud and noisy and awkward and play hockey and exchange silly notes with the boys in the boarding-school in the next village. Perhaps it was wrong to have sent Sybil away to a school where she would meet girls from France and England and Russia and South AmericaвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ half the countries of the world; a school where, as Aunt Cassie had said bitterly, she would be forced to associate with the вАЬdaughters of dancers and opera singers.вАЭ She knew now that Sybil hadnвАЩt liked the ball any more than Th√©r√®se, who had run away from it without a word of explanation. Only with Th√©r√®se it didnвАЩt matter so much, because the dark stubborn head was filled with all sorts of wild notions about science and painting and weird books on psychology. There was a loneliness about Th√©r√®se and her mother, Sabine Callendar, only with them it didnвАЩt matter. They had, too, a hardness, a sense of derision and scorn which protected them. Sybil hadnвАЩt any such protections. Perhaps she was even wrong in having made of Sybil a ladyвБ†вАФa lady in the old sense of the wordвБ†вАФbecause there seemed to be no place for a lady in the scheme of life as it had existed at the dance the night before. It was perilous, having a lady on oneвАЩs hands, especially a lady who was certain to take life as passionately as Sybil.
She wanted the girl to be happy, without quite understanding that it was because Sybil seemed the girl she had once been herself, a very part of herself, the part which had never lived at all.
She found her father-in-law seated at his great mahogany desk in the high narrow room walled with books which was kept sacred to him, at the desk from which he managed the farm and watched over a fortune, built up bit by bit shrewdly, thriftily over three hundred years, a fortune which he had never brought himself to trust in the hands of his son. It was, in its gloomy, cold way, a pleasant room, smelling of dogs and apples and woodsmoke, and sometimes of whisky, for it was here that the old man retired when, in a kind of baffled frenzy, he drank himself to insensibility. It was here that he would sometimes sit for a day and a night, even sleeping in his leather chair, refusing to see anyone save Higgins, who watched over him, and Olivia. And so it was Olivia and Higgins who alone knew the spectacle of this solitary drinking. The world and even the family knew very little of itвБ†вАФonly the little which sometimes leaked out from the gossip of servants straying at night along the dark lanes and hedges about Durham.
He sat with his coffee and a glass of Courvoisier before him while he smoked, with an air of being lost in some profound worry, for he did not look up at once when she entered, but sat staring before him in an odd, enchanted fashion. It was not until she had taken a cigarette from the silver box and lighted it that he looked up at the sound of the striking match and, focusing the burning black eyes, said to her, вАЬJack seems very well today.вАЭ
вАЬYes, better than he has been in a long time.вАЭ
вАЬPerhaps, after all, the doctors are wrong.вАЭ
Olivia sighed and said quietly, вАЬIf we had believed the doctors we should have lost him long ago.вАЭ
вАЬYes, thatвАЩs true.вАЭ
She poured her coffee and he murmured, вАЬItвАЩs about Horace Pentland I wanted to speak. HeвАЩs dead. I got the news this morning. He died in Mentone and now itвАЩs a question whether we shall bring him home here to be buried in Durham with the rest of the family.вАЭ
Olivia was silent for a moment and then, looking up, said вАЬWhat do you think? How long has it been that he has lived in Mentone?вАЭ
вАЬItвАЩs nearly thirty years now that IвАЩve been sending him money to stay there. HeвАЩs only a cousin. Still, we had the same grandfather and heвАЩd be the first of the family in three hundred years who isnвАЩt buried here.вАЭ
вАЬThere was Savina Pentland.вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶вАЭ
вАЬYes.вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ But sheвАЩs buried out there, and she would have been buried here if it had been possible.вАЭ
And he made a gesture in the direction of the sea, beyond the marshes where the beautiful Savina Pentland, almost a legend now, lay, somewhere deep down in the soft white sand at the bottom of the ocean.
вАЬWould he want to be buried here?вАЭ asked Olivia.
вАЬHe wrote and asked meвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ a month or two before he died. It seemed to be on his mind. He put it in a strange way. He wrote that he wanted to come home.вАЭ
Again Olivia was thoughtful for a time. вАЬStrangeвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶вАЭ she murmured presently, вАЬwhen people were so cruel to him.вАЭ
The lips of the old man stiffened a little.
вАЬIt was his own fault.вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶вАЭ
вАЬStillвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ thirty years is a long time.вАЭ
He knocked the ash from his cigar and looked at her sharply. вАЬYou mean that everything may have been forgotten by now?вАЭ
Olivia made a little gesture with her white, ringless hands. вАЬWhy not?вАЭ
вАЬBecause people donвАЩt forget things like thatвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ not in our world, at any rate.вАЭ
Quietly, far back in her mind, Olivia kept trying to imagine this Horace Pentland whom she had never seen, this shadowy old man, dead now, who had been exiled for thirty years.
вАЬYou have no reason for not wanting him here among all the others?вАЭ
вАЬNoвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ Horace is dead now.вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ It canвАЩt matter much whether whatвАЩs left of him is buried here or in France.вАЭ
вАЬExcept, of course, that they may have been kinder to him over there.вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ TheyвАЩre not so harsh.вАЭ
A silence fell over them, as if in some way the spirit of Horace Pentland, the sinner whose name was never spoken in the family save between Olivia and the old man, had returned and stood between them, waiting to hear what was to be done with all that remained of him on this earth. It was one of those silences which, descending upon the old house, sometimes filled Olivia with a vague uneasiness. They had a way of descending upon the household in the long evenings when all the family sat reading in the old drawing-roomвБ†вАФas if there were figures unseen who stood watching.
вАЬIf he wanted to be buried here,вАЭ said Olivia, вАЬI can see no reason why he should not be.вАЭ
вАЬCassie will object to raking up an old scandal that has been forgotten.вАЭ
вАЬSurely that canвАЩt matter nowвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ when the poor old man is dead. We can be kind to him nowвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ surely we can be kind to him now.вАЭ
John Pentland sighed abruptly, a curious, heartbreaking sigh that seemed to have escaped even his power of steely control; and presently he said, вАЬI think you are right, Olivia.вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ I will do as you sayвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ only weвАЩll keep it a secret between us until the time comes when itвАЩs necessary to speak. And thenвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ then weвАЩll have a quiet funeral.вАЭ
She would have left him then save that she knew from his manner that there were other things he wanted to say. He had a way of letting you know his will without speaking. Somehow, in his presence you felt that it was impossible to leave until he had dismissed you. He still treated his own son, who was nearly fifty, as if he were a little boy.
Olivia waited, busying herself by rearranging the late lilacs which stood in a tall silver vase on the polished mahogany desk.
вАЬThey smell good,вАЭ he said abruptly. вАЬTheyвАЩre the last, arenвАЩt they?вАЭ
вАЬThe last until next spring.вАЭ
вАЬNext springвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶вАЭ he repeated with an air of speaking to himself. вАЬNext spring.вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶вАЭ And then abruptly, вАЬThe other thing was about Sabine. The nurse tells me she has discovered that Sabine is here.вАЭ He made the family gesture toward the old north wing. вАЬShe has asked to see Sabine.вАЭ
вАЬWho told her that Sabine had returned? How could she have discovered it?вАЭ
вАЬThe nurse doesnвАЩt know. She must have heard someone speaking the name under her window. The nurse says that people in her condition have curious ways of discovering such thingsвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ like a sixth sense.вАЭ
вАЬDo you want me to ask Sabine? SheвАЩd come if I asked her.вАЭ
вАЬIt would be unpleasant. Besides, I think it might do harm in some way.вАЭ
Olivia was silent for a moment. вАЬHow? She probably wouldnвАЩt remember Sabine. When she saw her last, Sabine was a young girl.вАЭ
вАЬSheвАЩs gotten the idea now that weвАЩre all against her, that weвАЩre persecuting her in some way.вАЭ He coughed and blew a cloud of smoke out of his thin-drawn lips. вАЬItвАЩs difficult to explain what I mean.вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ I mean that Sabine might encourage that feelingвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ quite without meaning to, that Sabine might give her the impression that she was an ally. ThereвАЩs something disturbing about Sabine.вАЭ
вАЬAnson thinks so, too,вАЭ said Olivia softly. вАЬHeвАЩs been talking to me about it.вАЭ
вАЬShe ought never to have come back here. ItвАЩs difficultвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ what I am trying to say. Only I feel that sheвАЩs up to some mischief. I think she hates us all.вАЭ
вАЬNot all of us.вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶вАЭ
вАЬNot perhaps you. You never belonged here. ItвАЩs only those of us who have always been here.вАЭ
вАЬBut sheвАЩs fond of you.вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶вАЭ
вАЬHer father and I were good friends. He was very like herвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ disagreeable and given to speaking unpleasant truths.вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ He wasnвАЩt a popular man. Perhaps thatвАЩs why sheвАЩs friendly toward meвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ on account of him.вАЭ
вАЬNo, itвАЩs more than that.вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶вАЭ
Slowly Olivia felt herself slipping back into that state of confused enchantment which had overwhelmed her more and more often of late. It seemed that life grew more and more tenuous and complicated, more blurred and indistinct, until at times it became simply a morass of minute problems in which she found herself mired and unable to act. No one spoke directly any more. It was like living in a world of shadows. And this old man, her father-in-law, was the greatest puzzle of all, because it was impossible ever to know how much he understood of what went on about him, how much he chose to ignore in the belief that by denying its existence it would cease to exist.
Sitting there, puzzled, she began to pull a leaf from the cluster of lilacs into tiny bits.
вАЬSometimes,вАЭ she said, вАЬI think Sabine is unhappy.вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶вАЭ
вАЬNoвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ not that.вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ SheвАЩs beyond happiness or unhappiness. ThereвАЩs something hard in her and unrelentingвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ as hard as a cut diamond. SheвАЩs a clever woman and a queer one. SheвАЩs one of those strange creatures that are thrown off now and then by people like us. ThereвАЩs nothing else quite like them in the world. They go to strange extremes. Horace was the sameвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ in a different, less creditable fashion.вАЭ
Olivia looked at him suddenly, astonished by the sudden flash of penetration in the old man, one of those sudden, quick gleams which led her to believe that far down, in the depths of his soul, he was far more profound, far more intelligent, unruly and defiant of tradition than he ever allowed the world to suppose. It was always the old question. How much did he know? How much did he not knowвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ far back, behind the lined, severe, leathery old face? Or was it a sort of clairvoyance, not of eternal illness, like JackвАЩs, but of old age?
вАЬI shall ask Sabine,вАЭ she began.
вАЬItвАЩs not necessary at the moment. She appears to have forgotten the matter temporarily. But sheвАЩll remember it again and then I think it will be best to humor her, whatever comes. She may not think of it again for monthsвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ until Sabine has gone.вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ I only wanted to ask youвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ to consult you, Olivia. I thought you could arrange it.вАЭ
She rose and, turning to go, she heard him saying, вАЬShe might like some lilacs in her room.вАЭ He hesitated and in a flat, dead voice, added, вАЬShe used to be very fond of flowers.вАЭ
Olivia, avoiding the dark eyes, thought, вАЬShe used to be very fond of flowers.вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ That means forty years agoвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ forty long years. Oh, my God!вАЭ But after a second she said simply, вАЬShe has taken a dislike to flowers. She fancies they take up the air and stifle her. The sight of them is very bad for her.вАЭ
вАЬI should have known youвАЩd already thought of it.вАЭ
For an instant the old man stood facing her with a fixed and searching expression which made her feel shy and led her to turn away from him a little; and then all at once, with an air strangely timid and frightened in a man so grim in appearance, he took her hand and kissing her on the forehead murmured, вАЬYouвАЩre a good girl, Olivia. TheyвАЩre right in what they say of you. YouвАЩre a good girl. I donвАЩt know how I should have managed without you all these years.вАЭ
Smiling, she looked at him, and then, touching his hand affectionately, she went out without speaking again, thinking, as she had thought a thousand times, what a terrible thing it must be to have been born so inarticulate and so terrified of feeling as John Pentland. It must be, she thought, like living forever imprisoned in a shell of steel from which one might look out and see friends but never touch or know them.
From the doorway she heard a voice behind her, saying almost joyfully: вАЬThe doctors must have been wrong about Jack. You and I together, Olivia, have defeated them.вАЭ
She said, вАЬYes,вАЭ and smiled at him, but when she had turned away again there was in her mind a strange, almost gruesome thought.
вАЬIf only Jack lives until his grandfather is dead, the old man will die happy. If only he can be kept alive until then.вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶вАЭ
She had a strange way of seeing things in the hard light of reality, and an unreal, lonely childhood had fostered the trait. She had been born thus, and now as a woman she found that in a way it was less a curse than a blessing. In a world which survived only by deceiving itself, she found that seeing the truth and knowing it made her strong. Here, perhaps, lay the reason why all of them had come to depend upon her. But there were times, too, when she wanted passionately to be a poor weak feminine creature, a woman who might turn to her husband and find in him someone stronger than herself. She had a curious feeling of envy for Savina Pentland, who was dead before she was born.вБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ Savina Pentland who had been the beauty of the family, extravagant, reckless, feminine, who bought strings of pearls and was given to weeping and fainting.
But she (Olivia) had only Anson to lean upon.
After she had gone away the old man sat for a long time smoking and drinking his brandy, enveloped by a loneliness scarcely more profound than it had been a little while before when he sat talking with Olivia. It was his habit to sit thus sometimes for an hour at a time, unconscious, it seemed, of all the world about him; Olivia had come in more than once at such moments and gone away again, unwilling to shatter the enchantment by so much as a single word.
At last, when the cigar had burned to an end, he crushed out the ember with a short, fierce gesture and, rising, went out of the tall narrow room and along the corridor that led to the dark stairway in the old north wing. These steps he had climbed every day since it had become necessary to keep her in the country the year roundвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ every day, at the same hour, step by step his big heavy-shod boots had trod the same worn stair carpet. It was a journey begun years ago as a kind of pleasure colored by hope, which for a long time now, bereft of all hope, had become merely a monotonous dreary duty. It was like a journey of penance made by some pilgrim on his knees up endless nights of stairs.
For more than twenty years, as far back as Olivia could remember, he had been absent from the house for a night but twice, and then only on occasions of life and death. In all that time he had been twice to New York and never once to the Europe he had not seen since, as a boy, he had made the grand tour on a plan laid out by old General CurtisвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ a time so remote now that it must have seemed part of another life. In all those years he had never once escaped from the world which his family found so perfect and complete and which to him must have seemed always a little cramped and inadequate. Fate and blood and circumstance, one might have said, had worn him down bit by bit until in the end he had come to worship the same gods they worshiped. Now and then he contrived to escape them for a little while by drinking himself into insensibility, but always he awakened again to find that nothing had changed, to discover that his prison was the same. And so, slowly, hope must have died.
But no one knew, even Olivia, whether he was happy or unhappy; and no one would ever really know what had happened to him, deep inside, behind the gray, leathery old face.
The world said, when it thought of him: вАЬThere never was such a devoted husband as John Pentland.вАЭ
Slowly and firmly he walked along the narrow hall to the end and there halted to knock on the white door. He always knocked, for there were times when the sight of him, entering suddenly, affected her so that she became hysterical and beyond all control.
In response to the knock, the door was opened gently and professionally by Miss Egan, an automaton of a nurseвБ†вАФneat, efficient, inhuman and incredibly starched, whose very smile seemed to come and go by some mechanical process, like the sounds made by squeezing a mechanical doll. Only it was impossible to imagine squeezing anything so starched and jagged as the red-faced Miss Egan. It was a smile which sprang into existence upon sight of any member of the family, a smile of false humility which said, вАЬI know very well that you cannot do without meвАЭвБ†вАФthe smile of a woman well enough content to be paid three times the wages of an ordinary nurse. In three or four more years she would have enough saved to start a sanatorium of her own.
Fixing her smile, she faced the old man, saying, вАЬShe seems quite well todayвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ very quiet.вАЭ
The whole hallway had been flooded at the opening of the door by a thick and complicated odor arising from innumerable medicines that stood row upon row in the obscurity of the dark room. The old man stepped inside, closing the door quickly behind him, for she was affected by too much light. She could not bear to have a door or a window open near her; even on this bright day the drawn shades kept the room in darkness.
She had got the idea somehow that there were people outside who waited to leer at herвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ hundreds of them all pressing their faces against the panes to peep into her bedroom. There were days when she could not be quieted until the window-shades were covered by thick layers of black cloth. She would not rise from her bed until nightfall lest the faces outside might see her standing there in her nightdress.
It was only when darkness had fallen that the nurse was able by means of trickery and wheedling to air the room, and so it smelled horribly of the medicines she never took, but kept ranged about her, row upon row, like the fetishes of witch-doctors. In this they humored her as they had humored her in shutting out the sunlight, because it was the only way they could keep her quiet and avoid sending her away to some place where she would have been shut behind bars. And this John Pentland would not even consider.
When he entered she was lying in the bed, her thin, frail body barely outlined beneath the bedclothesвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ the mere shadow of a woman who must once have been pretty in a delicate way. But nothing remained now of the beauty save the fine modeling of the chin and nose and brow. She lay there, a queer, unreal old woman, with thin white hair, skin like parchment and a silly, vacant face as unwrinkled as that of a child. As he seated himself beside her, the empty, round blue eyes opened a little and stared at him without any sign of recognition. He took one of the thin, blue-veined hands in his, but it only lay there, lifeless, while he sat, silent and gentle, watching her.
Once he spoke, calling her wistfully by name, вАЬAgnesвАЭ; but there was no sign of an answer, not so much as a faint flickering of the white, transparent lids.
And so for an eternity he sat thus in the thick darkness, enveloped by the sickly odor of medicines, until he was roused by a knock at the door and the sudden glare of daylight as it opened and Miss Egan, fixing her flashing and teethy smile, came in and said: вАЬThe fifteen minutes is up, Mr.¬†Pentland.вАЭ
When the door had closed behind him he went away again, slowly, thoughtfully, down the worn stairs and out into the painfully brilliant sunlight of the bright New England spring. Crossing the green terrace, bordered with great clumps of iris and peonies and a few late tulips, he made his way to the stable-yard, where Higgins had left the red mare in charge of a Polish boy who did odd tasks about the farm. The mare, as beautiful and delicate as a fine steel spring, stood nervously pawing the gravel and tossing her handsome head. The boy, a great lout with a shock of yellow hair, stood far away from her holding the reins at armвАЩs length. At the sight of the two the old man laughed and said, вАЬYou mustnвАЩt let her know youвАЩre afraid of her, Ignaz.вАЭ
The boy gave up the reins and retired to a little distance, still watching the mare resentfully. вАЬWell, she tried to bite me!вАЭ he said sullenly.
Quickly, with a youthful agility, John Pentland swung himself to her backвБ†вАКвБ†вА¶ quickly enough to keep her from sidling away from him. There was a short, fierce struggle between the rider and the horse, and in a shower of stones they sped away down the lane that led across the meadows, past the thicket of black pines and the abandoned gravel-pit, toward the house of Mrs.¬†Soames.