i. "Let Me Just Stop Trying" - Katelyn Turner A raw confession, echoing with the weight of unspoken truths. *“Let me just stop trying, let me just stop fighting. I don’t want your good advice or reasons why I’m alright. You don’t know what it’s like.”* The plea hangs in the air, a fragile surrender.
ii. "Count Your Blessings" - Lauren Aquilla A counterpoint to the despair, a gentle reminder to find light amidst shadows. *“Count your blessings, not your flaws.”* A quiet mantra for self-compassion.
iii. "Start Again" - OneRepublic ft. Logic A yearning for redemption, a willingness to rebuild. *“I know that I messed it up, time and time again. I just wanna roll my sleeves up and start again.”* The rhythm of hope, a heartbeat of renewal.
iv. "We Can Hurt Together" - Sia A glimpse behind the façade of composure, a recognition of hidden pain. *“You say you are fine, but I see behind those eyes.”* The weight of unspoken wounds, visible in the silence.
v. "Most Girls" - Hailee Steinfeld An anthem of empowerment, a desire to embrace strength and beauty. *“Most girls are smart and strong and beautiful… I wanna be like most girls.”* A celebration of resilience, a declaration of self-worth.
vi. "Same Dark Places" - JRJR A universal truth, a shared vulnerability. *“I know everybody goes to the same dark places, sometimes in the dead of night, when you think you can’t make it.”* The solace of knowing we are not alone in our struggles.
vii. "Better When I’m Dancing" - Megan Trainor A temporary escape, a burst of joy amidst the chaos. *“I feel better when I’m dancing.”* A fleeting moment of liberation, found in movement and rhythm.
viii. "Fake Love" - BTS A mask of happiness concealing a broken heart. *“For you I could pretend I was happy when I was sad.”* The ache of deception, the weight of unfulfilled desires.
ix. "Too Young" - Sabrina Carpenter The confusion of burgeoning emotions, the disorientation of first love. *“If I’m too young to fall in love, why do you keep running through my brain?”* A questioning of boundaries, a longing for connection.
x. "Darkness Keeps Chasing Me" - Grace VanderWaal A desperate flight from inner demons. *“Every now and then the darkness tries to chase me, and my legs are getting tired of running.”* The exhaustion of constant pursuit, the fear of being overtaken.
xi. "Wait For It" - Hamilton A stoic acceptance of fate, a defiance against the inevitable. *“Death doesn’t discriminate between the sinners and the saints. It takes and it takes and it takes, but we keep living anyway.”* The resilience of the human spirit, refusing to yield to despair.
xii. "Butterfly" - BTS A plea for unwavering loyalty, a promise of eternal companionship. *“Will you stay by my side? Will you promise me?”* The vulnerability of trust, the yearning for lasting connection.
xiii. "Star Shopping" - Lil Peep A self-deprecating confession, a longing for worthiness. *“Right now I know that I’m not really worth it. If you give me time, I can work on it.”* The struggle for self-acceptance, the hope for improvement.
xiv. "Stay" - Blackpink A desperate plea for presence, a rejection of solitude. *“Don’t ask why it has to be you, just stay with me.”* The raw need for companionship, the fear of abandonment.
xv. "Just Say" - Extreme Music A desperate cry for any response, any acknowledgment. *“Say you hate, say you hate me. Just say something, say you hate, say you hate me. Just say anything.”* The desperation for validation, the pain of silence.
xvi. "Moonlight" - Grace VanderWaal A revelation of fragility, a glimpse beneath the surface. *“A doll made out of glass, all her friends think she’s great, but I can see through it all, and she’s about to break.”* The illusion of perfection, the hidden cracks beneath.
xvii. "Where Did Everybody Go?" - The Next Step A lament for lost connections, a questioning of belonging. *“Think I’m old enough to know, where did everybody go?”* The ache of absence, the longing for reunion.
xviii. "I’ll Be Good" - Jaymes Young A promise of atonement, a vow to overcome past failures. *“I’ll be good, I’ll be good, for all of the times that I never could.”* The determination to rise above limitations, the commitment to self-improvement.
xix. "Brother" - Kodaline A declaration of unconditional love, a pledge of unwavering support. *“If I was dying on my knees, you would be the one to rescue me. And if you were drowning out at sea, I’d give you my lungs so you could breathe. I’ve got you, brother.”* The strength of kinship, the solace of unwavering loyalty.
xx. "Willow" - Jasmine Thompson A vow of unwavering devotion, a promise of eternal presence. *“I wouldn’t leave you, I would hold you when the last day comes.”* The depth of commitment, the promise of enduring love.
xxi. "Euphoria" - BTS A recognition of the source of joy, a celebration of blissful connection. *“You are the cause of my euphoria.”* The radiant glow of happiness, ignited by another’s presence.
xxii. "Growing Pains" - Alessia Cara A confrontation with inner demons, a reckoning with past traumas. *“Used monster as an excuse to lie awake, now the monsters are the ones that I have to face.”* The courage to confront darkness, the determination to heal.
xxiii. "The Fault in Our Stars" - Troye Sivan A yearning for shared wonder, a desire to lose oneself in beauty. *“I don’t wanna let this go, I don’t wanna lose control. I just wanna see the stars with you.”* The longing for connection, the shared embrace of wonder.
xxiv. "Epiphany" - BTS A revelation of self-love, a recognition of inner worth. *“I’m the one I should love in this world.”* The acceptance of self, the embrace of imperfection.
xxv. "The Night We Met" - Lord Huron A haunting echo of remembrance, a longing for a lost moment. *“I don’t know what I’m supposed to do, haunted by the ghost of you. Take me back to the night we met.”* The ache of nostalgia, the longing for reconnection.
xxvi. "ilomino" - Billie Eilish A selfless desire to protect, a willingness to sacrifice. *“I tried not to upset you, let you rescue me. The day I met you, I just wanted to protect you.”* The quiet strength of devotion, the unwavering commitment to care.
xxvii. "Enemies" - Lauv A questioning of conflict, a plea for reconciliation. *“Why do we have to be enemies?”* The search for understanding, the longing for peace.
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Mari xx’s handwritten note:
Hello chicks,
This is the playlist for my story and I strongly recommend you listen to all the songs—they’re great (well, in my opinion). Anyway, I love you, and I’ll see you later.
-Mari xx