God; Not Gift

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God; Not Gift

Gray clouds my heaven have covered o’er;

My sea ebbs fast, no more to flow;

Ghastly and dry, my desert shore

Parched, bare, unsightly things doth show.

’Tis thou, Lord, cloudest up my sky;

Stillest the heart-throb of my sea;

Tellest the sad wind not to sigh,

Yea, life itself to wait for thee!

Lord, here I am, empty enough!

My music but a soundless moan!

Blind hope, of all my household stuff,

Leaves me, blind hope, not quite alone!

Shall hope too go, that I may trust

Purely in thee, and spite of all?

Then turn my very heart to dust⁠—

On thee, on thee, I yet will call.

List! list! his wind among the pines

Hark! hark! that rushing is his sea’s!

O Father, these are but thy signs!⁠—

For thee I hunger, not for these!

Not joy itself, though pure and high⁠—

No gift will do instead of thee!

Let but my spirit know thee nigh,

And all the world may sleep for me!