March 22 + 

Had a letter from the Keeper of Zoology at the British Museum, advising me of three vacancies in his Dept., and asking me if I would like to try, etc.⁠ ⁠… So that Dr. ⸻’s visit to me bore some fruit. Spent the morning daydreaming.⁠ ⁠… Perhaps this is the flood tide at last! I shall work like a dray horse to pull through if I am nominated.⁠ ⁠… I await developments in a frightfully turbulent state of mind. I have a frantic desire to control the factors which are going to affect my future so permanently. And this ferocious desire, of course, collides with a crash all day long with the fact that however much I desire there will still remain the unalterable logic of events. + 