June 2 + 

Up to now my life has been one of great internal strife and struggle⁠—the struggle with a great ambition and a weak will⁠—unequal to the task of coping with it. I have planned on too big a scale, perhaps. I have put too great a strain on my talents, I have whipped a flagging will, I have been forever cogitating, worrying, devising means of escape. Meanwhile, the moments have gone by unheeded and unenjoyed. + 